Madison Beer claims that leaked nudes made her suicide when she was 16 years old.
‘I got an anonymous text that had a picture of a computer screen with 50 videos on it, literally like I was in f Pretty Little Liars.’
Madison Beer has stated that being blackmailed with leaked nudes drove her to suicidal ideation and caused her to suffer from PTSD and paranoia.
The model and singer rose to prominence after pop star Justin Bieber shared a link to one of her renditions on YouTube in 2012. Her “tell-all” memoir, The Half of It, will be released next week.
Beer made the revelation on the current edition of Call Her Daddy, hosted by Alex Cooper, as the two discussed slut-shaming, “endless sexualisation”, red flags, abandonment issues, and the impact of nasty comments on social media.
Because of the deterioration in her mental health as a result of the leaked photos, the 23-year-old stated she had considered suicide twice: “I felt that everyone on the f face of this earth would [rather] me dead.”
The films, which she claimed were transmitted to a close friend via Snapchat over a period of years, were broadcast on the internet without her permission, leaving her feeling powerless and guilty.
She believes she was blackmailed two weeks after the initial leak. “I got an anonymous text, literally like I was in f Pretty Little Liars, that was a picture of a computer screen with 50 videos on it.”
Despite his concerns about the source of the content, Beer told Cooper, “For anyone who’s like ‘that’s a lot of videos,’ I was a young horny kid [who] sent videos to a guy that I liked, and I’m not going to let anyone shame me for it.”
Beer claimed that in the aftermath, she struggled to cope and initially blamed herself. “The adults around me were telling me that this was ‘bad’ and would ‘ruin’ my career.” It took her a long to completely appreciate what had occurred: “I didn’t realize I was the victim until years later,” she revealed.
“The most difficult part was knowing in my bones that it wasn’t me that was at fault – that it was the boy who betrayed my trust that was at fault, but that was also me learning very quickly that men and women get treated very differently.”
Beer was desperate to prevent the dissemination of the first video when it was uploaded when she was 15 and obsessively searched her name on Twitter. “Every dollar I’d earned up until this point, I then spent on clearing this and scrubbing it from the internet,” she explained.
Beer explained that this entailed scouring websites and forums for links, which she would then forward to her hired “web sheriff” for eradication.
While watching a video of Beer, who was as young as 13 in portions of the leaked film, she stumbled upon footage of an adult male having “aggressive sex” with a sex doll.
This subsequent violation, according to Beer, reminded her of being sexually abused as a youngster. “That image will never leave my mind because it disturbed me so much.”
The singer told Cooper that the resulting PTSD is still affecting her professional life. Even the blackouts between songs on her tour act may be exhausting. “I can just get lost in it, and sometimes I feel like I’m back in the place where I was abused,” she said.
Beer stated that she has finally moved past the point when she blamed herself for what happened.
“Just because you can talk about it and hopefully help other people doesn’t mean that anyone, including myself, should have gone through these things,” she continued.
The Call Her Daddy podcast episode “Blackmailed with my Nudes” is now available on all streaming platforms.
If you are experiencing distress or are struggling to cope, call the Samaritans on 116 123 (UK and ROI), email email@example.com, or visit the Samaritans website to locate the location of your nearest branch.
If you live in the United States and you or someone you know requires immediate mental health assistance, call the National Suicide Prevention Helpline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). This is a free and confidential crisis hotline that is open 24 hours a day, seven days a week.
If you are in another nation, you can discover a helpline near you by visiting www.befrienders.org.